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2012

2011-12-31T23:59:00.004+08:00

2011 is almost coming to an end, and i feel very bitchy right now :( :'(pasal aku mau horse riding so bad, but its gotten cancelled so many times!

sabar saja.

(tapi banar nya aku mau hari ani, pasal aku mau AT LEAST LAH FOR 2011)

HISH.

BUT ITS OKAY. its not. okay. its ok.

i mean, we can't always have what we want.

inda jua 100% selalu.

maybe its ok kalau 90% saja.

:'''''''''''''''''''''''(

a fail asian. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

OKAY 2011 is gonna end soon!!!!

and my head is very itchy.

super tempted to cut my hair banar nya.......

d; my hair is so dry. its so annoying

r; okay

d; mcm mau potonggg.

r; inda tia mcm princess tangled :(

magaaad he so cute, i mean i wasn't gna cut my hair for a billion bucks but...... :::((((

2011 has been super awesome!

summarizing

i got my first job as a cashier, and is super handal at counting money. loll. and reading how much people make. how much money they owe the bank.... like a gypsy reading a palm.... hehehee. and i could tell my kids one day of the hardship of working like a poor person:'(

skh

venere

auLait

went belayar alone. i did, back in 2006 to Australia, but then i was gna see my mom..... after 16h of flight :/ hahaha. but this year, i went with amy and amit, and yati! siooook! :p hahaha. gila, loser, i know, whatever, i was 20. sheesh :'(

AND I WON PROM QUEEEEEEEEN? yep, you are looking at PTEM Prom Queen of 2009/2010. goddess hera. oh yeah................. when you see an immortal movie, or 300, or any greek theme movie, IT IS MY FACE. ON THE GORGEOUS QUEEN. :'( HAHAHAH

i got in UBD............. weeheww. uni life? hahaha. i was expecting UK. but gash. UBD isn't half as bad :) i actually like it. hehehe..... its almost like my moms previous uni dulu. :(

got my driving license. at the age of 20. :( lambast :'( hahaha. biar tia. i have a driver. malls ku banar nya :'( whatever. *crawls to hole.

got a new car! hahaha. i know eh? i know. not bad. a first hand coupe. i love Adam!!!

got my first UBD results, straight Cs :'(

first time raya with hairs family. scary shit?

Had the best birthday ever :'( thanks baby :'(

first time tinggal in a school hostel. o. ma. gad. sleepover at a place thats not my house. and not to forget i lost my sleepover virginity to meimei..... ;')

got diamonds? oh yeah...

got over stage fright! trust me :D

went to pakistan. staying here, for, over a month. and is spending my awesome new year... well, AWESOME-LY.

BUT the creme de la creme of 2011 is me getting engaged to my baby. of four years. i never thought we would have gone this far. and thank you sayang..... :) *gay music in*

;') man i have achieved so much awesome this year :D

these are two pictures taken last of 2010 and 2011. come closer 2012... and hahaha, can

HIDAYAH 31/12/2010

hHIDAYAH 31/12/2011

HIDAYAH 31/12/2012

hahah, i would post of chronological morphology of my transformation. but..... I'm lazy. and if youwant just follow my Instagram, incase you can't get enough of my annoying vanity :/ hahahahahahahaha. old habits don't change even for 2012.

il set this post to air on 12:00, 1Jan2012. right now i actually have t get ready for Muree. plus i cannot tolerate the load shed, its just toooooo depressing.

hehhehe, Time well spent hidayah. KUDOS. KUDOS. :D. i couldn't imagine a better 2011. ahahah, though t would be nice if hairie was here :( i sure do miss him :'(

no resolutions this year. just an aim to live life to the fullest.

CEST LA VIE EVERYONE!

content

2011-12-20T22:02:00.010+08:00

my current obsession?

PERFECT TEETH.

and because I'm not a hoarder with my pictures as much as i am with my room *cough.....

i have like an upper jaw overbite. i notice it when i laugh. its so ugly :(

my one is the class 2 malocclusion

and here is a picture of it from the internet.

ok i took the liberty of taking a picture of my teeth.

my front teeth. i know, aku suka my front teeth.

there. my teeth sideways. :( not cool. i hate it.

makes it look

doctors tell me that i don't need need braces. aku suka :( aku mau braces...... and since the brunei govt dentist cannot agree to subsidizing me braces :'( *sad music* i have to turn private. and private braces cost 4000BND. OK? cmon. look at my teeth? theyr kinda perfect dari dapan. it won't make sense if i spend 4000 dollars on a minor faulty :( i don't know :(

so my friends are telling me this would be my option. RETAINERS. its so much cheaper. like. 8 times cheaper. hahaha. and i can take it off if i want to. :( hahahahah. kesian jua eh............ lol. :(

but i really do need t fix my teeth. i think theyr funny :(

and i also want dimple piercings. pasal iv been seeing a lot of girls with dimples, and its driving me jelles :( hahahahaha.

and its like.... soooo cold here..... I'm wearing a glove as i write :(

and I'm not getting any thinner :((((((((((((( hahahaha.

bella swan.

2011-12-20T20:01:00.007+08:00

today is Day 25 aku in Pakistan. and iv been in BED. saja. maybe aku ada jalan. mallas ku cakap. :O and i saw Bella Swan in Pakistan. WHAT THE HELL RIGHT? hahaha. we went to the village apa, it is a wonderful experience for me. :( priceless lah! I'm gonna post 5 pictures and I'm done. MALASSS ku kan scroll banyak bayank.

pemalas to the very core, and at its finest :'(

OK GO!

masa balik. technically the whole kampong came t visit us.

im so awed :( such nice people :(

stairway to therooftop.

me in the wheat fields!

yep they threw flowers at us!

MY BELOVED WHEATFIELDS!

eh kajap aku lupa si bella swan!

sama onot? :((((((((

#DOPPLEGANGER!

ok... another different blog aft this. :p

lajuliah

2011-12-17T22:37:00.005+08:00

i see if i have the ability to type a blog post in 5 mins... ok?

i have dinner in 4 mins. and i have t put on sweater and blablabla....

me and haji has been fighting pasal = DISTANCE.

distance is a bitch......... berabis, i mean, if you're 1 meter in waist line, you should kill urself. cuz diabetes is gonna get you anyways!

BUUUUT ANYWAYS.

wev been fighting a lot lately :(

because apart from hugs and kisses, distance can only offer you PERSONALITY.

and let me tell you this, i don't have the shiniest personality on the planet :( hahaha.

my family thinks I'm too TEMPREMENTAL.... and god bless, it definitely doesn't help when your fiancé is AN IGNORANT ASSS.

broke up like three times this 2 weeks. but got back again. yep I'l be honest. its not my proudest. :'( and now we have an agreement;

"hidayah must not be angry on small matters and must not

cuss, insult, swear, go ballistic, phsyco, crazy.

and Hairie must always pay attention no matter how boring,

annoying, redundant, irrelevant Hidayah is, must know the

difference between salmon pink and rose pink. because THAT MATTERS."

well let me explain you how ignorant he is, he doesn't know if i like letters, even if i explain that i do 10000000 times. thats not an exaggeration. he will forget.

and if i say yang i hate STUPID QUESTIONS and give deathly blows of golfstick pain.....

HE STILL DOESNT GET IT.

JOKES ABOUT ANIMAL CRUELTY.... i cry when he makes those jokes. HE DOESNT GET IT.

YOU TELL Me HOW I CANNOT BE GODZILLA ON SUCH.............. IGNORANCE.

ok that is all, and to sum up this blog..............

"there is no perfect relationship,
but one that still goes, even through tough bullshit."

and I'm proud to say that my FAVIROUTE ASS is still here, and still trying to work things out :) i love you. thanks for staying :) but i dnt wanna say it to his face, cuz I'm still angry.

OK. time. 10 mins. IM LATE :'( hahahahahahahaha batah k. upload picture. and spell check. mihi.

MANGO

2011-12-13T23:17:00.013+08:00

greetings monsters. heheh

i was having dinner tadi with my mom. had pizza, cuz she's so lazy to cook nowadays. i don't blame her, i mean. cooking is a form of women subordination!!! and ordering Pizza is defiantly not. cz most of the pizza makers are men. and so is thesender. and so is the guard. but its definitely a problem with the class of thesociety. i do feel bad for the proletariats. HEHEHEHEH. but why start worrying now? girl power. hahahaha. #sociology jua! hahahahaha.

kajap. i start with a picture of me.

tryna lose weight this time. not eating banyak. kinda harder when ure in Pakistan because its cold, and u just wanna keep yourself warm apa. :( HAHAHA. and the food is just toooooooo cheap :( HAHAHAH. seriously.

so as we were eating my mom was like....

when i was having Aqilah, i wanted to eat olives saja.

and me, being ~~the self-centered-bitch that i am~~ me, asked her, "AKU?" hahaha ~~cuz every subject had to be about me~~ lol. and my mom was like;

When i was gonna have you, all i could ever want was Mangoes.
Sampai one time your dad fell tryna get one...

hahahahahahahahahahahahahah. wow.

#LIKE A BAWS B)

hAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

i mean..........

~~SO FULL OF MYSELF~~

metaphorically, I'm a sweet fruit, sometimes sour. yellow - asian. only found in the tropics - SUMMER ALL YEAR - sexy sexy sexy. bikinis.

FUN FACTS ABOUT MANGOES ~~and how i will totally relate it to myself~~;

originated from india. lol hahaha, after all i am 1/8 indian. AHHAHA. ok.

****ROLL EYES.

used as floral decos in some cultures. because. i am. decorative.........

mango peel contains Urushiol - that can cause contact dermatitis. which can also be found in poison ivies. yeah so u remember her? the one arah bat man? HEHEHHE she's hot :( like...... OK. i aint gon say it... OK OK. *rolls eyes. HAHAHAHAHAH. and yeah. i am on the skin quite irritating. but its a facade. I'm not irritating. more like. ANNOYING. but tolerable annoying. HAHAHAHAHAH. I'm serious. COME HANG WITH ME, ITS SO HARD TO JUSTIFY MYSELF HAHAHAHAHAHA. hmm. inda cali.

the national fruit of bangladesh. I. have nothing to say. about this.

In Hinduism, the perfectly ripe mango is often held by Lord Ganesha as a symbol of attainments, regarding the devotees potential perfection. YOU KNOW WHAT THAT SOUNDS TO ME? I'm perfect :p HEHEHEHHEHEHEHEH. cuz lord ganesha says so. OK? your argument is invalid. sasak kau?

LOOOOOL. hahahaha. :p

ok ok. :D HEHEHHE.

and i have explained my awesomeness.

holiday dance!!!!!!!!!

win

2011-12-07T16:56:00.006+08:00

pakistan has been sibeh awesome heheh

but my parents aren't -____- NUHUH. :(

and so is this flu I'm having :(

hahaha, for the past month, iv been crushing on Arianna Grande.

hehehehe

she's soooo good with her vocals :(

and iv been friendly with my musical side. and i hate it when people damitkan volume to hear me.... MUMBLE :( let me ~~sing~~ MUMBLE myself :(. so pengatil.

i don't usually share this a lot, and i would deny any chance of ~~singing~~ in crowd. but i can listen to tone deaf people..... and i hate listening to people who can't sing. :( I'm serious. like when they whisper in high tones. :( HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i no like it. its kinda funny. i can't sing :( serious, i wish i could :( HAHAH.

and i went COP Belait, some DJ from ubd asked me if i could sing...... LOOOOOOOOL. if u expect noting less than an earthquake. LOL. and when i waited at the tables in AuLait also, somebody asked me if i could sing. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. mati. its just so funny, what are they judging me on? :p HAHAHAHAH. do i have a singing characteristic? i sound like an APOCALYPSE. i can't even dance. :p HAHAHAHA.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

i always giggle. i can't help it. inda cali pun bae. HAHAHAHAH.

puchika

2011-12-05T13:25:00.007+08:00

cheh. the last time i blogged was when i decided i want adam, lo. I'm such a lazy pig. LOLLL. its december already. ehehehe.

i got adam already.

i requested that his plastic was retained till i get him, as a way of ripping off his virginity. LOLL.

hahha, i love adam, he's so. i don't know, i can't stop riding him. he's so perfect. :( hahahah now i have t be apart from him :( for 1 month. i don't know. he hasn't mandi lagi. :( and iv got some spots on him lagi :( hahahah.

he so lambut and his windows is frameless. his pick up is quite fast... hehehe. and he has sensors.

i also ordered the ones with complete body kits, and as you can see, his rims, are gorrrrrrrrrgggggg x. heeeeheh.

his steering wheel is leather. so nyaman ah... hehehe, and i can change my iPod thru my steering wheel...

i kinda want like a small quran for Adam. aint a kafir car.. loll.

oh god, so sleepy right now...

tobehonest

2011-11-14T05:55:00.008+08:00

i should totally stop looking at other cars right now pasal iv set for a kia cerato koup... :/ i know, iv gone so low, from an audi tt to a... this :/ neermind. shit. i feel like a freaking scum. A FREAKING SCUM. :( such an asshole somemore:(.

and iv been checking right, why the fuck is nissan and audi so mahal?

bullshit people tell me its the shipment.

but isn't nissan Japanese? shouldn't it be a lot cheaper to ship a japanese car to brunei?

DO I HAVE O DRAW HOW CLOSE BRUNEI IS? compared to JAPAN AND THE US?

price of 370z convertible in the us - USD$39,500 - BND$50,911.59

HOWEVER, in brunei - BND$137,000 - USD$106,292

CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE FUCKING TELL ME HOW FUCKING HORRENDOUS THAT LOOKS? WHY THE FUCK IS IT SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE?

ok. exhibit B.

AUDI TTRS - USD$38,300 - $BND49,364

in brunei - $87,000 - USD$67,499.

im fucking confused here.

kia, in US and in Brunei has the same, SAMA jua with chevy (except for the magnificent camaro), and hyundai. its so fucking confusing. i mean, nissan is fucking apanese, why the fuck is it expensive? macam kereta continental? :/ chevy is american. man. i gotta let it go :'(

iv figured out some solution to this tho.

marry a rich guy. and use all his money t buy myself all the beautiful cars.
work hard in school... and blablablablab
give up on materialism CHEAHHH.
move to america.
steal these cars.
cry till i bleed. TOTES.

:( IT SO HARD :'( HAHAHAHAHHAHA.

let it go :/ let it go.

but hey, at least i have beautiful nails.

what did i look at masa car survey-ing?

Volkswagen Scirocco.

retails at BND$60k.

fucking sexy. the sexiest hatchback i have ever seen. FUCKING. PERIOD.

Hyundai Veloster.

love hate relationship brah. i did fins it cute for one sec

sekali i find it ugly. sekali i find it cute. its a new breed from hyundai.

was THHHIS close to getting it. close.

price isn't out till mid november. but $30-35,000k

Mazda3.

i hate it.my mom likes it. no.

$2x,xxx

volkswagen golf.

hey, my cousin has one of these, and i was THIS close

to getting one. it is cute. but i can't keep having the

same things like my cousin. its just not cute anymore.

Retails at $28,000.

im not gonna lie, you are by far the sickest.

Peugeot RCZ.

I'm just gna let you pass. this time. :/

$60,000

that is quite cheap, for a mofokin sexy car (comparing it with audi, n

issan, gtr BRUNEI PRICE of course)

i know

MY NAILS ARE DIVINE.

and i would love to try clawing someones eye today. LOL. JK. LOLOL. JK. NO. no. JK.

*inserts vain picture of me because...*

17 days to pakistan!

hmm. 8 days to exam :'(

5 days to ADAM. :D

and everyday is still my birthday! :DDDD

WHOS ADAM?

this, is... ADAM.

heheh, my cerato koup.

its not much :/ 30k. comes with a bodykit. I'm not gonna lie t you about the price. straight as hell. i have gone from a punk to a dork. :/

well. doesn't kill. and il take Adam's virginity lol, soon. in 5 days. waaw. so freaking sexited.... :D. why adam?

i was actually planning t get a white car.... #likeallmycrazeforwhitething #nazibitch. -___-

tapi i kinda went.... a little. NO. a lot.... further than... well... ok. explanatory.

its Maroon. Spicy Red t be exact. Maroon5. Adam Levine.

he totally wants me :(

so has anyone seen IMMORTAL?

apart from it being a total fail................ I THINK THE GUYS ARE HOTTT.

and kellan lutz... shit.

and it occurred to me, that i was Hera. for prom queen. SAKLIKAUEH. HAHAHAHAH.....

superbass

2011-11-13T02:11:00.002+08:00

can somebody tell em who the eff i iz?

running for something political, :) hehehehe

so far i haven't been bitchy.

iv controlled the key to solitude. that is.....

YO FAYCE.

no srsly, u so ugly. i went 180. TEEHEE.

its study break.

17 days to pakistan. OMG.

THANKS ANYWAY.

2011-11-08T10:33:00.002+08:00

SMILE PICTURE, BEFORE I START A STRESSING BLOG ENTRY.

its been a fight streak between me and...

erh. its so annoying wah.

its not that i can't... erh.

he's just not always there for me, salad kah if i ask for attention? if its not him yang kan bagi.... who else?

i don't get why the fuck is .... rationing his attention for me. its so stupid. with a capital S.

my eyes are bengkak from crying like a sad little bitch.

i mean, bro, i get it from all the time you have cancelled out on me, but yesterday was hari raya korban, i expected you to be there. and you weren't.

how was i supposed to feel?

wth man, its getting super gay t talk about it in malay.

and i feel super stupid that i don't have anyone t talk t this about.

one because i know their answer is that I'm super stupid for not understanding.

and two because, I'm a girl.

OK.

whatever. thanks www.blogger.com. nobody gets me like you do. :')

FUCK.

car problems :'(

2011-11-08T10:25:00.003+08:00

i can't believe this. i will not getting my peugeot which i have already called Bliar. fuck..... :( it sucks balls. and I'm already stating to hate November. I HATE IT SUDAHHH.

my mom is HSBC, and she said there are problems kalau kan loan a Peugeot, unless theres like a guarnto. sth like that. i dnt kno man. i think for sure they don't have a bond yatah bullshit catu. cuz my mum has to pay like 1y saja kalau loan. I'm. so. frikin. pissed.

so my other options are... entah eh. EUW.

a chevy captiva

. i dno man, its one lean mean machine.

Kia Cerato

this or the cruze. it does have the body of a camaro.

but its not a camaro -___-

Hyundai Veloster

a new car. coming in this week.

i may like it, i may not. cz its a hatchback.

punk ass bitch. >;'( sasak ku.

łÿrįčāl

2011-10-26T19:10:00.013+08:00

i haven't been blogging for a while because i kinda find studying a lot of fun ~~not~~

for October only i had two presentations, 6 essays, lets not touch on my readings. WTF.

but my god, OCtober has been so much fun. :) hehehee.

i stayed at the core......:D

view of the topmost floor!

yours truly punya room

my morning perk me up

my ultra awesome bed, super soft i might add.

my room!

our awesome counter!

our living room! gila right leather furniture. and a flat screen TV!

i know i wanna stay there man, its so awesome, :( i don't mind not seeing hairie :( i mean, I'm gna get my own car soon! at least. here, i will study. LOL..........

OMG.

MY CAR.

HAHAHAHAHA.

well, its not really my dream car but hey, not everyone gets their dream car on the first time round. right? RIGHHT?

:'( ~~honestly, it hurts like a freaking bitch BITCH~~

a moment of silence for my crushed dreams and hopes.

a last look of the AUDI TT :'(

take a good look. and i must eject all dirty talk.

must eject all attempts to rub myself against this magnificent beast.

must eject the burning sensation of the glance of this car.

must eject tears.

pause it lah :(

i will have my Audi, SOOON. :'( INSYALLAH. :'(

so what am i getting as my first car is....

drumroll

....

...

ok ok

yep, i will be driving a Peugeot (pur-zhoh, NOT PEGIT, ANNNNNNNNOYING) 206cc

I'm slowly loving this car tho.

its coming in on the 29th of October.

AND I CAN ONLY DRIVE KALAU I GET MY DRIVING LICENSE.

ok i approve this message.

forever21

2011-10-10T23:59:00.001+08:00

whats up monsters! hehe.

i just had a birthday 5 days ago, and i still feel my assholeness seeping within every pore of my skin. HE HE HE.

how did i celebrate it?

:) hhahaha.

it was on a wednesday yep.

i had like a 9 hour day on tuesday with lectures, surprisingly i dint feel the blistering pain of waiting :D hehehe. i know, birthdays make me less bitchy :)

last picture of me being 20.

i feel like, I'm big sudahhh HEHEH. i mean, wtf, my parents shud stop treating me like a forever baby, cz;

#1 im engaged

#2 I'm their first born

#3 im 21

forever twenty one! :DDDD

hehehe. lavit.

so, on the eve of my birthday, he culik me out *giggle*

and we went to De'Royalle.

and i found this on our seat :')

SWEET EH.

hehehe, three roses as always. i love you.*giggles*

and he wrote me a letter =, i have like a super weakness for letters. :(

i mena, nowadays we just text, *giggles* or whatsapp, or wall ppl, but letters, gila, nobody does it. and thats why it matters a lot to me... :)*giggles*

will only open this after 5 days :D*giggles*

hehehe, and i just did open it today, follow my instagram f u wanna see the full thing but heck, I'm so happy, I'm gonna make you bitches jeleeeees of what he wrote for me;

Hi sayang, Happy 21st bday to you.
wish you all the best, for you sties,
and everything
*big heart surrounding* 21st

and also, I would like to say Happy
Anniversary for the both of us, I can't wait
to marry you!
*big heart surrounding* 4 years

YOURE MY EVERYTHING

:D ok i lied, i posted it up. cz not everyone has an iPhone/iPod/iPad. LOLOLOLOLOL *fraternizing stare *

and my dad sent me a long ass text at exactly 12:00. i love you babah :'( i miss you jua.

of course lah super sweet :') hehehe. he message me cun wan. :')

thankful, i guess this is one of the greets yang i will remember :) being 21 and all. alhamdullilah.

and thennnn, out of nowhere *giggle* my cake came out! OMG :')))))

hehehe, he got me a chocolate indulgence cake from Bakerlynn, omg, i love the taste when it just melts in your mouth...(FINALLY A CAKE AFTER 4 YEARS, I WAS GONNA GO CRAZY RIGHT THERE WONDERING IF URE EVR GNA SHOW UP AND GET ME ONE) hehhee, and he put a NUR lagi arah my cake, WHAT THE HELL? that is only accepted in ICs and EXAMs -________-

and then he made some ppl sing for me. omg sweet berabisssss.... i can only show a link. but :') heheheee. sswwwweeetttt.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150323403448264

OK. IM LAZY SUDAH.

can i just not do this? :p HAHAHAH

and this is my bday gift from him ;')))

super lazyy lazzzyyy lazzzzzy y y y.

i have three things i wanna blog :'( but my back sakit #prissybitch.

ok. mwamwa!

forever21

2011-10-10T18:47:00.009+08:00

whats up monsters! hehe.

i just had a birthday 5 days ago, and i still feel my assholeness seeping within every pore of my skin. HE HE HE.

how did i celebrate it?

:) hhahaha.

it was on a wednesday yep.

i had like a 9 hour day on tuesday with lectures, surprisingly i dint feel the blistering pain of waiting :D hehehe. i know, birthdays make me less bitchy :)

last picture of me being 20.

i feel like, I'm big sudahhh HEHEH. i mean, wtf, my parents shud stop treating me like a forever baby, cz;

#1 im engaged

#2 I'm their first born

#3 im 21

forever twenty one! :DDDD

hehehe. lavit.

so, on the eve of my birthday, he culik me out *giggle*

and we went to De'Royalle.

and i found this on our seat :')

SWEET EH.

hehehe, three roses as always. i love you.*giggles*

and he wrote me a letter =, i have like a super weakness for letters. :(

i mena, nowadays we just text, *giggles* or whatsapp, or wall ppl, but letters, gila, nobody does it. and thats why it matters a lot to me... :)*giggles*

will only open this after 5 days :D*giggles*

hehehe, and i just did open it today, follow my instagram f u wanna see the full thing but heck, I'm so happy, I'm gonna make you bitches jeleeeees of what he wrote for me;

Hi sayang, Happy 21st bday to you.
wish you all the best, for you sties,
and everything
*big heart surrounding* 21st

and also, I would like to say Happy
Anniversary for the both of us, I can't wait
to marry you!
*big heart surrounding* 4 years

YOURE MY EVERYTHING

:D ok i lied, i posted it up. cz not everyone has an iPhone/iPod/iPad. LOLOLOLOLOL *fraternizing stare *

and my dad sent me a long ass text at exactly 12:00. i love you babah :'( i miss you jua.

of course lah super sweet :') hehehe. he message me cun wan. :')

thankful, i guess this is one of the greets yang i will remember :) being 21 and all. alhamdullilah.

and thennnn, out of nowhere *giggle* my cake came out! OMG :')))))

hehehe, he got me a chocolate indulgence cake from Bakerlynn, omg, i love the taste when it just melts in your mouth... hehhee, and he put a NUR lagi arah my cake, WHAT THE HELL? that is only accepted in ICs and EXAMs -________-

and then he made some ppl sing for me. omg sweet berabisssss.... i can only show a link. but :') heheheee. sswwwweeetttt.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150323403448264

OK. IM LAZY SUDAH.

can i just not do this? :p HAHAHAH

and this is my bday gift from him ;')))

super lazyy lazzzyyy lazzzzzy y y y.

i have three things i wanna blog :'( but my back sakit #prissybitch.

ok. mwamwa!

chocki

2011-09-23T01:42:00.005+08:00

i think there are three types of girls in this world.

1. girls who want, but never get.

2. girls who get but never want.

3. girls who want and always get.

and if i were to choose who is the most happiest.... i say girl number 3.

why not number two? getting without asking? srsly? PASAL, you get oxygen, but you never appreciate. so if you get a lamborghini but all you ever wanted was a wheel. then you can't really be happy now, CAN YOU?

and i soooo do not have to point out why number one is sad, CZ ITS JUST SAD.

alhamdullilah, i think i have achieved, all the shiz that i have ever wanter, i am a go getter. and i will stress to the highest heaven till i get it............ kalau inda......... its CAPS LOCK FURY. >;(

oh yeh.... you don't wanna see it...............
complete with a deafening screech...... that will burst your eardrums, and my weapon of choice, will always be...... a golf stick.

but its okay, I'm like a flower, i never get angry..... selalu, its almost rare. :)

banar....

HAHAHAHA.

just don't ever touch rie.

apart from me being ambitious...... I'm territorial.

oh yeh. any girl who even FANTASIZES... banar tah.............

like sum slut who blocks me from her life. takut takut... HAHAH. tanya tah ia. what i did to her, malas ku kan cakap. GATAL SAJAA K.

cuz im battttman >:(

check my pajamas, lol... just found my boxers! :( sasak ku. HAHAHA. rupanya... and my wardrobe is clean.... omg.

inda lagi batag my birthday. KINDA 12 days away? :(

lovely dayyyyyy.

2011-09-18T20:59:00.006+08:00

went to the international conference of the inaugural of SOACIS....

it was.....

no comment. hahaha. it was fun!

HAHAHA. so, two certs in one month. i am the bawssz.

tt

2011-09-18T20:37:00.003+08:00

i met my car. eseh my car. LOLLL.

MANUAL AH. mati ehhh...

MAN-NYU-WEL

bannnci. tapi lawsssss like whuut.

VISUAL SEX. softop....... waaaaaahhhhlalalalalaalalalallalalalaw. shoooo lawwwssssss

r2011

2011-09-08T02:05:00.006+08:00

raya hmm. im a litlle bit overdid with that... :p tsktsktsk :p

but il give you a brief of what i did this year... lol.

first day; bitch fit. u don't wanna know.

my fucking bangkak eyes were basically my accessories....

family day on monday alwayssss.

hehehe. dam amy and nabilah got thinner, and i got, fatter. :'(

and everyone is asking me mana si hairie. APAKAN. inda kan aku bekapit sama ia EVERYWHERE.............. annoying.

day two;

sama nabilah, jack and.... bro?

dint get angpau :'( hahahaha.

sudah ku bagi tau, inda dapat :'( sasak ku :'( energy ku down wah. apakn :p HHAHAHAHAHA.

but wth. aku mash dapat angpau wahhhhh! :p

day tiga:

wahhhlau spent the whole day w him and got loadsssssss of caching caching:p lucky charm eh baby ku atu :p HEHEHEHEH. will look forward to future appearances

the hottest piece of shit on the planet. :(

DAY tiga;

HONESTLY IM LOSING COUNT :(

:( tbecontinued

ladida

2011-09-08T00:27:00.008+08:00

DREAM CAR.

still my fav. so I'm actually gonna see it this friday and talk about the price. and blablabla. :( HAPPY! but postpone again three days lagi :( its ok. test drive, inda lagi batah :D

but if that doesn't work out. i want;

SECOND OPTION.

lawa :(

this is the only japanese car that i click to :( its so nice, and maintenancewise is cheaper than an Audi TT. cuba, getting one is a bitch and soooooooo hard to get :( and its so fucking expensive :( kalah getting a TT :( srs shit.

so my mum toasted that i should get a Chevrolet :(

NO.

i don't want ok.

she's willing to pay for everything is i get a chevy.

kalau i get an audi, aku bayar again kan. cz its so fucking expensive kalau monthly installments.

:'(

but DAMN, its an ugly car, africa :(

inda wah inda. mama ku macam pajal aku bali. and everyone is telling me its not that bad jua :( I DONT WANT. its like forcing me into an arranged marriage with my strong stance on arranged marriage. :(

marrying a GOOD guy, who you won't love. ID PREFER A LOVE TAMING A GUY YANG PAYAH, YANG AKU SUKA OKAY.

macam kan nangis ku wah semua orang majal aku suruh bali this car :(

but my uncle said, give it a chance, check the other models.

SO I GAVE IT A CHANCE.

and i saw........

chevy corvette, retails at USD49,095. :( chip jua :(

lawaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :((((

oh yeah, you know who it the chevy camaro :'''( *orgasm.

sooooo lawaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

and can you believe it? RETAILS AT USD22,805.

FUCK MY LIFE. so pretttttttttyyyyy. and soooooo cheap for a TOOOOO SEXY CAR! :'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''(

so i called the dealer, and they said, WE DONT SHIP THIS.

ok. thanks.

not even the corvette.

OK THANKS.

THANKKKKS.

bah wish me luckkkkkk. can't wait to drive like a dictator. OK.

down

2011-08-31T11:43:00.003+08:00

ya allah, i want to question how you do things, but i know that it has its own agenda, for whatever reasons it may be... i just cannot help feeling so confused and angry right now.

today is the first day of raya, and i just feel like..... i screwed up yet another part of my life.

in life, theres always two parts of a story.

i feel like, its just my part yang always misconstrued.

why do people act like i can't be broken jua kan?

i can okay?

all these bullshit i hear.

people just don't want to regard how i feel, pasal;

i have well off parents?
cz i have a better understanding in humans?
because i have achieved my desired goals?
cz i know what i want?
because I'm prom queen(needed to say that :'( after all there are only 0.00001% prom queens throughout time/population/present count) you think prom queens have awesome lives?
maybe you think I'm pretty *awkward silence............*

so everytime i fuck up.

i just get SLASHED big. BIGGGG. just because I'm the above (minus number six OK. I KID.).

one fuck up. just one. i am a criminal for life.

its just so different when you fuck up all the time. they give u a huge time frame to recuperate. they give you money. hugs. moral support.

BIG FUCK UPS GET AWESOME COOKIES.

i am not implying anything, but just sit assess that to some extent, you have always needed a big reason to hate (an ideologically stereotyped) Perfect person.

i have so myself, but i have never sat down and think, they actually have bigger problems than BIG FUCKUPS.

for the past two years, i have hated one so close, due to his major big successes which goes on constant, but have failed to respond wisely at a certain event. i hated him. so much because of one mistake. but little did i know, that deep down, his biological ascription makes him a bigger vault of unexpressed emotions. i failed too, to see that he has loved and cared for us.

because....

on a white paper

you will always see the black spot.

and for all the deeds and love you have showered, a blue moon fuck up is always REMEMBERED.

if u inverted it, to a black paper, methamorphically representing those who constantly fuck up...

the white spot. is alllllllllllwaaaaaaaaaaays visible.

I'm at a verge of stopping.

i can't sudah. its just too heavy :(

irc

2011-08-24T01:00:00.004+08:00

i have went beyond the line of tiredism today :(

from sahur..... till now. yes. i just got back. that is calculatively 21hours of nonstop functioning, and damn girl, it feels like a wall street crash. I'm overly tireddd.

I TOOK two coffees today...............

and it is not productive. especially when ur nt consuming anything, ur body kinda works on the caffeine only. kinda freaky.

new found glory

2011-08-22T20:43:00.005+08:00

5 WTF things i still cannot process:

1. when two ugly people talk about how hot they are.

i have my standards of beauty, don't hate me for being judgmental.... I'm only human. beauty is two things for me, inner beauty and outer beauty. either one, kalau inda you're butt ugly. I'm srs. ok, so, two ugly people with ugly hearts:

x; lets go hang out (influenced by drama flicks)

y; whore kau ani eh, bitch, ok, lets get drunk and shit.

x; hehehehe. ok, LOVE THE DRESS.

y; you're so pretty.

x; no, you're pretty.

y; no, you're pretty.

x; no, you're pretty.

y; no, you're pretty.

x; no, you're pretty.

y; no, you're pretty.

x; no, you're pretty.

y; no, you're pretty.

x; no, you're pretty.

y; no, you're pretty.

BITCH AINT ONE OF YOU IS PRETTY. STOP IT. pretty people don't act pretty. and being pretty does not include being vulgar. a fucking sweat bead just trickled...

2. when i come in late for class.

im a master SIFU when it comes to this, inda panda jara. iv been in school for over 17 years sudah. and i can never process my head to come in early. THO I KNOW, its bad. must change must change................................................................... and when ppl just stare, back inn secondary they will punish you. and now in Uni they dnt give a fuck. and i feel. scared shit. LOL. i mean, aku sudah ken a penalize NOT ONE, but A BILLION TIMES. i even had t pay my exams cz I'm always late.

3. when girls wear leggings as pants.

their not pants FOOL.

ok. im guilty as charged for commit this. but it really scared the shit out of me masa i saw it, actually on someone. YALLAH, than you for showing me the light. ITS FUCKING DISGUSTING, like i can se ethe crotch apa. kalau ia skinny, EW. kalau ia fat, EW.

4. when someone has bad breath, smells, pronounciating stupidly, CHEWING loudly.

I KNOW ITS PEOPLES HABBITS, as different as i am, i am still culturally mainstream. :( OK. even if i wasn't jua, i have not seen any culture that accepts bad breath, smells, and ugly pronunciations. chewing inda ku tau ah. tapi....... jarang jua. :( i don't know whether to tagur, OR NOT. whats up w these people! :(

5. when someone hurts my feelings.

:( im a mushy marshmellow :( deepdown :( a mushy gay umpy umpy umpkin,..... with maybe a shrewd FINGERS.

............................................................................

ok. updates!

i lost four kilos...

i really wannna point out that those THINSPIRATION BLOGS in TUMBLR? really work? i stare at pictures of skinny flawless girls. WHATEVER K, i know skinny is not the only beauty symbol. hahaha, but everything is much better when use skinny. (know definitions between skinny and aneroxic).

all i did was just eat whatever i want, and have fun! :D

and a big hug for Bashirah maiden who will be leaving us in three weeks. :( :( awww. she will be doing a scholarship on child Development :( I'm so jelous. but hey. I'm proud of you :( and all the best to you bash :)))) HEHEHE.

ok. ok. what have i been up to. i don't know myself. will try to be more rajin in blogging #procrastination. AHAHAH. maw earthlings x!

break in

2011-08-15T20:25:00.004+08:00

this has been a week old already but my DAD HAS GONE TO PAKISTAN.

it sure feels weird without him, pasal i can't splurge much.

and iv gone a few kgs down.

LOL. i don't know whether i shut celebrate.

but we miss him dearly.

BUT OH MY FUCKING GOD.

the process of letting him go?????????????

I WENT TO 6 OCCASIONS TO DO SO. WTF.

1. Doa Selamat at my nene.

2. GRU farewell at Officers Mess.

3. Farewell at seargants mess.

4. Doa Selamat at my house.

5. Dinners with the Gurkha Familes(YEP WITH AN S)

6. doa doa on the actual day...

OK. C'MON. DIVA MUCH BABAH!

HAHAHAHAHAHHA. inda lah, thank you to all the warm greetings from people :)

the constant free food. mmm lav it....

and i (applying context from previous blog) am gonna inform you, that i will be going to Pakistan this December! :D HEHEH siook! my first winter, pigang snowwwww.

IM SOOOO GONNA TUMBLR ABT FASHION WINTER TIPS.

lollllllllll

shuffallin

2011-08-15T19:17:00.002+08:00

im not so pissed.
i think I'm mostly pissed at.............. cancelled classes, and the fact that it would 0987643567 easier if a had an AUDI TT to fucking drive me around. it would definitely do everyone a favor.

OK. BUT I SO HATE IT WHEN UR CLOSE FRIENDS CHOOSE TO NOT TELL YOU THINGS BECAUSE THEY THINK ITL HURT YOU IN A WAY. BUT ITL HURT WWAAAAAYYYY MORE IF YOU FOUND OUT YOURSELF.

ok la, I'm like victimizing my loving fiancé, cz i know he loves me... but he does it also! :'(

SCENARIO A;

talks to a bimbo... AND NEVER TELLS ME. one day the bimbo talks to me. and then tells me, they been acquainted ikdshjjdsbn

OK. sekadar. BUT WTF? why can't i know? did u plan to keep her or sth? why can't i know? am i not worthy? if some of you tell me "MAYBE HE FORGOT". NO. my relationship w Haji Hairie is different, we NEVER want to talk to ppl of the opposite sex, unless there are agendas, i.e. sales, cheat to homework, money, job opportunities. sorry la, kalau kan save the homeless, and u wanna strike a convo, NO. its just us, its our principal. SO. IT IS DEFINITELY IMPOSSIBLE FOR US TO FORGET.

IN MY HEAD, u didn't tell me pasal u did some crazy funky stuff, and use afraid ur giving pointers that this person is alive, and that i might know SOMETHING, if we ever clash. entah ah. Allah mama Adil. i always find out.

scenario 2;

when a group of three or more friends make an event... but leaves one out because he/she is busy. so they keep it a secret, cz they think itl hurt ur feeling.

i hate this part. i don't know. i think its the culture kali. i mean its going on like....... ALL THE TIME. around me. amongst different group of ppl yg i hang out with. AM I MISSING THE MEMO OR STH?

i, as an individual, would never do that. NEVER.

i think its diminishing someone, as a person when you do stuff like that! DISRESPECTFUL.

I THOT WE WERE COOL BRO?

AND HOW THE FUCK CANT I TELL WHEN FACEBOOK REIGNS THIS AGE?

so you would rather hurt me that way?

BEING THE LAST PERSON TO KNOW, actually hurts more...... THAN "hey dye, I'm sorry, i know ur busy w work and all, but if God gives, if u could come, just join us yeah?"

common.... "OH, WE DIDNT WANNA TELL YOU CZ UR BUSY"... OK. SURE. (I'm so gonna kill the person who invented that word. "BUSY". fucking abused like shit)

YOU THINK I WAS BUSY? its called having a life, and i multitask.

I THINK THIS FUCKING HABBIT, will create a race of neglecting, propaganda-ic generation with no ability to fucking multitask. payah kah kamu kan inform? I'm not asking to be in a relationship with everyone, tapi wth. COURTESY PEOPLE.

inda payah kali bongkok kalau u lalu depan orang tua, inda kali tebakar badan kamu if if you dont, i tried, well, not on purpose, i would regard myself as highly mannered THAN MOST. tp its just NICE. and so is telling close people that you are going to the kadai G, or this, or that.

macam engagement ku bah, aku bagi tau semua yang ku kenal, because if they didn't know, it would be SHITTY, and the only reason why i don't tell people is cz of two things,

1. i hate you.

2. i don't know you.

not telling, would imply that I'm not serious w rie. cz one of these days i would revoke this proposal and run away. THIS, would hurt hairie.

SO THINK PEOPLE.

life is so much easier.

daripada kamu menyumpah arah Facebook, twitter, antah apa saja pakai communicate nowadays..... use it to not create war. STOP BEING SO SECRETIVE WHEN UR NOT, macam seluruh dunia kali kamu bagitau pasal tangan sakit kah, tunjjukkan gambar susu kah, atu tebuat kamu... usai lightings apa, which takes 2 h for the perfect combo for photoshop, 5 minutes kan bagitau barang important that would offend someone if u dint tell, di biar kan.

hi again

2011-08-06T02:25:00.008+08:00

i can't hep but feel blessed for july and august. its true that god is fair :( for all the pain he will bestow, he will repay with kindness.

CUUUUZZZZZZZZZ

i got this iphong where my heart used to be!

and a new chair.

i wanted a pink egalitarian chair in which u saw on my previous post, but as all cool things never exist in brunei, i quite ecstatic with what i have. AND MY IPHONE! its jailbroken. i know its bad. but Mobility requested that they do so. i mean, why not, it costs 50 bucks, and basically 13h of your life, and here, i kind got it for free. :) HAHAHAHA. I LAV IT. i am now 1 step from 8873267873 steps to being closely resembled to megan fox -_____- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. (bitch, it doesn't count, u still look fat)

AND NO ONE SHALL SIT ON MY MAJESTIC CHAIR, BUT ME. and occasionally peyton. :(

i am the king of the world. dududdu... :( HAHAHAHAH. bt srsly. don't.

OK WIN!

BYE STTOPID.

nyannyan cat

2011-08-05T02:48:00.005+08:00

ur so fat.

u know the feeling of not being able to sleep? it feels like... THE LETTER X. because. nobody uses it. unless you're a poklan...... and u keep typing like ur some retarded baby with a fucked up lisp. K ToHx.

d; azizul, ur like xmen3

a; huh?(habis battery malas layan)

d; yang boleh teleportation.

a; wtf is teleportation?

d; ok. go to hell.

banci ku eh. semua tah ignore aku.

EVEN THE SANDMAN.

the slutty bitch left me awake ni aaah. makan gaji haram jua eh......

*googles sandman*

he looks like kesha :(

oh jadi singer sudah la kau, thats why ur all arrogant. and slacking. I'm so gonna write a letter.

this is the 1 week of me being engaged to mr hairie madman (oops, auto correct) (OOPS, LAPTOP APPLE MANA ADA AUTOCORRECT)

hes so annoying. but hehe. sometimes i just burst into laughing sometimes. just cz I'm thinking of him. :). its just so weird at times, i mean, wev been together for 4 years and its official. srsly.

one time, i was so fucking angry right. i made a scene at my boss's bbq party. i ran away for an hour. he had to drag me... and after he did what he did, he blew water arah my face. and he told me "your dad told me to do that cz u act like you're all possessed and shit, lets go eat". i can't ask for more.

but i still hate him.

and i hate peyton. she's so adorable. i feel like backstabbing her arah my blog. she's such a S____. sekajap ia fatal arah my mum, then my dad. and then everyone else. sasak ku kau ah. and my dads being ultra creepy man, cz his iPhone is filled with pictures and videos of peyton. he's definitely cheating on my mom with Peyton. told you peytons a S___. :( HAHHAHA. jk i love you peyton. xxxxxx u way cuter than the nyan nyan cat.

ok, i think the slut bag kesha sandman is back and finally up from being a lazy ass.

ew gross k.

2011-08-04T01:55:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAH.i just got back from saving the planet. :p HEHEHE.

well, no. I'm actually googling CYSTS.

and I'm FUCKING SCARED.

next thing, tmr morning. I'm gonna buy 10 bottles of dettol and neutralize myself :(

summer cleaning.

2011-08-03T14:39:00.007+08:00

guess who has a macbook air sudah!

i got the smallest one, cz ubd is soooo jauh and i have to walk all the way, so far so good! I'm loving it and updating it myself to suit me. :)

its so light :')

and it has a lot of features made easy, i cudv bought a pro, but i was just not attracted. :'(

i can say that these suits a traveller. and i can safely say that i am one, u know after all the sleepovers and shiz. :) hahaha.its soooo helpful for me, ultra convenient.... ;p

i love it! i really do. and the packaging again. OMG so nice...

believe it or not, its as big as ur school file ni box ahh.

i really love the fact that its super fast... srsly! :D hahahaha.

ok, back to my point,

I'm currently cleaning my room.

iv become extra crazy w hygiene recently... i wipe everything. i just hate dirt/germs/dust/poklans now:( wtf. LOL. i use t be a hoarder... hidup dalam kekotoran. LOL. now wtf...

proof!

my room smells like apples.

and iv been planning a renovation for my room lately, making it more home-y. cz i love staying home nowadays... #issueswiththesun. LOL.

love ya tweets!

eggalitarian

2011-08-01T20:35:00.008+08:00

i hvnt had a proper date sama my baby.... it sucks

teet salah my fiance :p hahahahahahah.

and i totally forgot to mention my rings. the rings i got! :p

this is tanda pertunangan, its half gold and half white gold.

this is my pembuka mulut, with a pink tourmaline in between! lavit.

my only hope of seeing him is if i go to his workplace and... well, date :( hahha.

so i went there tadi.............

d; baby, i dreamt abt you, and its a naughty one....

r; olry?

d; yeah, *gatal.

SEXY GIRL LINTAS

r; *staringg at the girl*

d: *SMACK*

r; WHAAAT?

d; YOURE CHEATING ON ME!

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH. sasak ku eh. i gotta get my game on......

starting weight, 58kg. I KNOW RIGHT. i was a fucking 40 before i met hairie, now im like a 58. wtf. how on earth did i let myself go????????? :( GAME ON.

and guess who has a white iphone 4 ? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. its still at the shop, cz aku minta atu. he he he. so theyr dl-ing sth. picking it up tmr! x! :D hehehehehe LAVVV!

guess whos a team mac! MEGAN FOX!

and i am totally lusting this egg chair k :'( I JUST WANT IT. OK. OK. :'(

mandddi!

engagement.

2011-07-31T01:13:00.008+08:00

hai, i got engaged!

hhahaha, i know right. ultra WHAT THE FUCK.

when i think my life is beyond drama... MASIH can lagi WHAT THE FUCK KAN.

i have definately added another WOW to my calendar for 2011. and if you ask me how i feel. I FEEL MINDFUCKED. lol.

srsly........ its like awesome, and wierd, and adult-y, annoying at the same time :( hahahahaha. and you know bridezilla...

hahahah, sakliekau. :( hahaha

srsly i was like fucking imagining thing like apaaaaa! HAHAHAHAH. banci ku. semua orang felt my wrath............................................

and all of you will say, WHY IS IT SO EARLY?

macam beranak accident. WTH.

my dad is going to pakistan, for a masters.

i kno, why pakistan, i dont know.......

so he actually wanted to be there masa i get engaged. hence the rush. :(

here are some pictures on the day.

i cannot properly caption all the pictures cz... im lazy. LOOL. :'( HAHAHAH.

and i just cannot be AYU on the day, its just so fucking hard. :( im all jumpy sana sini. wtf. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

moga jodoh di dunia dan akhirat (ppl usually say sampai akhir hayat. but that just means yang...... when i die.... he can fuck sum1 else. WTH. no way. im definately cursing this relationship to end FOREVER, even when i fucking incarnate to be a STONE. :'()

COME AT ME BROOOOOOOOOOo~~~

we totally did the old fashioned on, and as you can fucking see, im in a fat tudong in a fat baju kurung :'( AHAHAHAHAHA. OK. and then they made me stay in the bilik. and then called me out. wtf. i was gna die, pasal theyr all staring, macam " EH BRO APA LIAT LIAT " bt shhuhs, nt the time to make funnyfunny :'( HAHAHAHAHHAA :/ shudve NOT wear tudong >:(

ok, its suposed t be a romantic blog. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i so cannot bring myself to that right now :'( HAHAAHAHAHA.

JeAime baby.

* ANNOUNCEMENT *

2011-07-25T22:07:00.001+08:00

last minute jua ah.................. IM GETTING ENGAGED. long story

THIS 29th. k thnxbye.

hai

2011-07-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

its my first day im UBD today and im exhausted shit :(

sitting from, can you imagine 7.45 to 4.30. with just 1h30min break? KILLER.

youre a hollywood treasure

2011-07-03T15:32:00.008+08:00

lately iv shown interests in artworks.... mostly depictions of Japanese ladies (NOT ANIME), and their culture and shiz. it exudes a different form of sexy. in which i bet most art enthusiast as sensed earlier on than yours truly. and my specific genre would be the sketches. One i would like to highlight and fancy sooooo much is Audrey Kawasaki's work. man, this lady is pure genius.

this geisha is my current twitter background...

theres a subtleness to it, a dash of innocence, a dash of sexuality, and fullon GENIUS. :(

perfection. i wold tattoo her works on me. if only, i had the balls to do it... :'(

hahaha. i salute Audrey kawasaki.

if i was ever granted any power of drawing, i would try to express the malay culture, whatnot. in a less bitchy way than whats in my head. TETTT. hahahaha.

hope for love that we dont believe in

2011-07-01T06:06:00.008+08:00

i am imagining how the designers of apple would look like.... srsly.

*brb*

i need to take my coffee.

its on the table.

which is kinda..... 10 steps away from my bed.

.......

OK.

got it.

coffee! by an awesome person? :p hahaha. that is so my cert from that trashu hsbc thing yg i shudve won >;( he he he. this eliminates hardships of walking out of my bed! no. im never gonna walk out om my bed. so now, technically im doing a threesome with my cooofffeeee and my bed. OK.

apple designer.

i would imagine that he would look sth like this....

YOU KNOW WHY?

pasal apple makes such awesome stuffs that just makes you feel like you have to buy every single shit they manufacture! WTF?

like yeah at first i was totally against the idea that my dad was gna buy me an IPAD. and i was like... no, its a stupid idea. it is! i mean, its like an overgrown IPOD. cant call, cant text. and the price... IS LIKE AN IPHONE? well almost. he he he.

sekali as i was working arah AuLait, every single customer who goes in has an IPAD. and esp this one regular, a group la, they always order the Kahlua, they all have IPADS, and they have a lamborghini. -_____- damn.

and from that point, I JUST HAVE... NO. I NEED. AN IPAD. I FEEL LIKE I NEED IT. i dont see the point why. it has no freaking use. but damn,.....

the inner voice is so small right now :( hahahahah.

BUT NO. i dont want to buy an ipad....................

maybe after i get my car.

or if i get i as a present. i dont mind :D teeeet!

only hot ppl make hot stuff. never in my life, iv seen an ugly designer make sth nice...

defo, i can only conclude that the owner of Apple... is somewhat GodLike hot like Channing Tatum... :(

my fone is at its babiest. and i want to buy a white iphong :( WHITE IPHONG

:( sho pleeeteh. :(

mau beli list;

AUDI TT.

FOR SCHOOL FOR SCHOOL.

macbook air.

its useless i think. pasal it has no cd port. like, i have to pay extra 80 bucks if i ever wanna buy dvd and watch here... wth? useless, il be the only one yg needs an external port... but damn. thats so hard to get and so sexy at the same time :) why so sexxyyyyy?

armani code perfume

only cuz megan fox is advertising.

iphong 4 white one ok.

cz im one rascist nazi biyatch and i no wanna use black phongs. I KID. ;p HHAHAHAH. i just like it k. im finally seduced. i cant wait for 5. im sorry 5. ur so lambat.... ok. i think first tho. so torn......... but my dads ip4 so nice. i donooo sabar le.

baby.

srsly man, where do i buy these things? maybe i shud wait hujung tahun maybe ada discount wan.... damn. they better be edible.

IM SO LATE FOR CLASSS :'(

too pretty for maths.

2011-06-30T00:15:00.010+08:00

its my moms birthday!

for the first time iv had a faamily dinner after almost countless months!

the food was overall... OK im not gonna do it in this post :p cz its my moms birthday :P HAHAHAHA. but swensens is GOOD. totally worth the money. i would def go there kalau kan liat movie just t buy an icecream... OR yeah. hahahahah.

my moms, 16 i guess. LOL.

and her haircut is getting more boyish...

i dont know what to say foo. but happy birthday to you! heheheh

x

2011-06-28T22:08:00.002+08:00

guess whos one step closer to driving........ H_DAYAH ARIFF_N :3

hell yeahhhhhh! hehehe. but i dont know... :( can i be awesome in 10h? CANT I BE? hahaha. andno person will be safe, no lampost can forever be straight and... no evil can live as long as my liscence havent expired oneeeeeeee :8))))))))))

and i shall ride fearlessly in,,,,

:'( i srsly need a car....

and when i do... im gna run over a few ppl in my list... again and again... teeet.

and since we dont have good enough CSI..... im gna get away with it. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH... hmmm. il delete this post when i do....

and please like this page!

2011-06-25T20:04:00.003+08:00

i need to look for a hobby.... so, some of the propsed ideas would be;

1 eyebrows plucking

gardening

knitting :'(

hahaha. macam insidious jua nenek ani!

#FOREVER ALONNNNEEE

2011-06-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

i went out with him to watch green lantern and we went buffalo steak house again.

buffalo steakhouse still is worth the money.

and green lantern is the shit! hahaha...

and i could never appriciate blake livelyy being blonde, i guess, its proven that im into brunettes. hahahaha. she was really hot in green lantern ;3 hahahaha.

the day before he was like im one cranky bitch and ******disconnected********and he highly emphasized on being ANGRY and BOLD bitch... well, it has its benefits, and green lantern proved that my assholeness is... KEY. TO. LIFE.

-___-

pastamania review.

2011-06-24T18:38:00.006+08:00

on the day i watched insidious.

LOVED INSIDIOUS, HATE PASTAMANIA.

hehehe, should watch it in the cinema

:'( so....

lambchop with NONINTERCHANGABLE SIDES?

apple fucking soda.

pizza.

my ratings

food;

presentation; 2/10

taste; 2/10

speed; 6/10

price; 3/10

AN ABSOLUTE FAIL.

drinks;

prsentation; 3/10

taste; 5/10

speed; 7/10

price; 4/10

i condemn pastamania for its digustingness.

buffalo steak house

2011-06-24T17:28:00.005+08:00

hair blow slowmotion...

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haiii peopleeeeee. :( i havent been blogging in a long time pasal i spend too much time working :'( I RESIGNED THO. banci ku wah socialize sama orang babi :'( i kinda fought with one of the waiter. buduh wah. i am one of the hardest ppl t piss off. i fucking swaer. tapi this guy... WOW. he just did -____-

me, as the friendly waiter i am, asked the customer abt the food i recomended, and the customer was like, NYAMAN! i ordered it again... i found that cute ok, so i laughed. and this idiotic insulted the way i laugh! WTF. rude jua eh...... and to not make myself look uber psychotic.... it wasnt the first time they insulted me. ada lagi dorang macam, ucap the way i say OKAY. YEP. macam apa. buduh jua eh..... cibai. so yeah i resigned.

my boss totally marah that asshole. but i said, jangan tah fire him, its his only source of income. teeerettttttttt! loser.

so i had a brunch sama my parents arah buffalo steak house. hehehehehe

and i ordered

lamb with corn coleslaw and rice for sides!

and the strawberry absolute....

RATINGS:

food-

presentation: 2/10

taste: 10/10

speed: 6/10

price; 5/10

drinks-

presentation: 8/10

taste: 1/10

speed: 7/10

price: 8 /10

and i am a person of taste... and i can say that the drink failed! i super liked the food :') walaupun its so poorly decorated :'( hahahaha.

dressed in poetry

2011-06-14T05:12:00.007+08:00

he he ehe....

i am definately the most bitchin human being right now :8))) hehehe.

hehehe. cannot wait for this movie!!!! :'( hahaha.

man i cried eh. cz bella kawin sama si edward. wtf :'( thats my line! pundageledey.... okay speaking of marriage.... :''''''''''''''''''(

d; sayang ;'(

r; .............

d; *hug*

r; *shove*

so aku marah lah! i hate it when he gets aggressive after ia liat movie.... babi pluss pluss.... :'(

r; sayang, kenapa ni? kana rasuk kau kah baby?

d; .....

r; baby :(

d; ........

r; talkk to me.

d; aku inda suka kalau kau agressive lapas kau liat movie.

r; AAAAaaAaaaAaAAAaAAaAaaaaaa............. okay. u shudve told me, i wanted to belanja u makan.

*kissssssss*

r; baby, i told my mom i wanna tunang with you :)

havent i been blogging on how much i wanna get married?

OH MY GOD... its gna happen soon, and its all flashing right infront of me, i think im gonna vomit... ;((((((

give me give me all of you you

2011-06-14T01:45:00.007+08:00

:( im already twenty and i dont have a driving license.

so yeah. like... i lost my phone kan.... :'( and that time i was having like a sleep over sama si mei! hahaha. and since my driver was asleep, me and mei macam DROVE THE CAR! omg :'( hahahah.

sekali the mum was still awake. and the mum doesnt like it if she drove..... SO I DROVE. wtf... i love speed :'( i wanna drive drive drive...............

nda wah, but right now i rely want an audi TT :'(

and i need like... retainers :'(

kan, so far aku kerja, i see a lot of colors of ppl. :( its like.... ok no offense, it always revolves around sex! srsly. boys girls. its so annoying!!! all they think abt is sex. i mean. the guys would be all drooling, and the girls would be all hating and SEXUALLY INSULT each other? :( hahaha stupid. ok, maybe its be, iv ot so much sexiness. LOL.

2011-06-08T01:50:00.004+08:00

So I had a fruitful talk with my dad about my intention of making a charity in Brunei. I hate the fact that there are so many strays that are unTtended. My dad, as a dad, supported me anyways. So he said, hidayah, some of the smartest people in life are those who remember death... :) Not in a radical annoying way, but it's true. :( I believe in living life to the fullest. LOving those who should be loved. Doing all that needs to be dOne. Making deeds because u want to have pahala towards the end of your life. I'm blOgging thru my phone ATM. So yeah. Zzzzz ok bye.

hope

2011-06-05T01:00:00.009+08:00

and at but not least for today! a toast to my sayang.... hes already twenty two... fuckmyself for not blogging on the day itself, but iv been busyyyy! :p clearly he understands. thank go hes not like me. or else au nangis macam apa :P HAHAHAHA.

this was taken on the eve of his birthday... hehehe. right at 12.00pm.

hehehe. i feel all jittery that i was there... loser eh.... i love him. ;'(

and i worked as normal, almost dying lah, cz i did like a full shift masa his eve and... i did a morning to celebrate. literally was gonna bite ppls head off summmore...

so for his birthday... WE WENT ON A DATE! wierddd. we went to ICC and DATED.

yep we dated.

and went safari -___- zzz boring.

and he hugged me masa dalam bas. how sweet. make kissy hugg scene lagi PDA!

me and him (LOVE)

we ate at AULait... i dont know. its spose t be jdhfaujd pasal ppl are like WTF are u eating balik at ur workplace.... :s apakan. aku suka k!

we both had welldone lamb mine with Garlic bread and Lemon and Herb sauce and his with Sauteed pasta with BBQ.

that was pretty much his birthday... lol. i told you i didnt really do much on his bday :s LOL.. we didnt even watch a movie. but so far 3 years... we have never watched movies on birthday. soo.... im not gna complain.... i was tired to the core jua :'( LOL.

and here you go! pcs on the day... hahahaha. pach.

texts on the day, which make me feel like IM THE BIRTHDAy GIRL :'(

":) Happy ku today. All i think about today is you"

- 28th May

and now i will show you what i actually got him...

hehehe. the most teenyest details pun aku kasi tau... sanak kah kamu k...

i gave him this for his birthday hehee.

this is my order... Hehehe.

this is what im gonna punk him with this year....... :p

ok done wrapping the kitkat.. HAHAHAH.

my note.

and thats his actual birthday gift! :P HEHEH.

his birthdy card, and i wasnt nice innit :p HAHAHAH. i remember saying, "hai, your almighty bitchyness, i love you so much, i think aku saja yang sanggup perangai mu yang macam hantu, but its k. me lavyu"

reading my surat! hehehee

ANGRY FACE.

this his actual hadiah, but i no tell k :')

opening his "gift"

using all the fake energy he has left :p HAHAHAH. to fake a smile to hide his hurt heart by the small gift i gave him ;p HAHAHA.

OPEN OPENNN

"WOW BABY"

-____- BALIK hahahahahahahahahah.

"barat jua sampah baby suruh aku buang ani :s"

HEHEH. BARU SENYUM KAU CIBAI??? :p

TAKES OUT GIFT*

HAHAHA. LEBAR SENYUM AH!

HAHAHA, pakai tarus :p HAHAHAH. happy boy :p

he told me its his first time having a branded watch... ok... im proud that i have taken that away :)

angel ku.

"Kau membuat ku berantakan
Kau membuat ku tak karuan
Kau membuat ku tak berdaya"

to FRIDAY FRIDAY.

2011-06-05T00:38:00.004+08:00

http://www.bt.com.bn/news-national/2011/06/02/communication-skills-essential-succeed-work

now to congratulate my kawan Faiyzah jumat....

on her winning in the oratory skills

someone totally photobmbed me :'( HAHAHAH.

jambuuu

2011-06-04T23:33:00.007+08:00

i would like to blog things at a piecemeal pace.

OKAY.

first things first. HARI JADI ASKAR.

i would like to congratulate my dad for being in the 50th anniversary....

i do think he is one great askar... and... i feel that i am in great hands.

PERWIRA KUUUU

my papa, Lt. Col Haji Zainal Ariffin bin DP Haji Ahmad

Him as the listed Commanding officers

Him, leaving me for Tatoo. :'(

i only pray that he gets promoted to become a general. APAKAN. hahaha. not possible! LOL. he can only go as far as a Leftenan general. in which i HOPE... can be possible ;'( HAHAHAHA. AMIN. AMIN YA RABBAL ALAMIN. pasal he is one awesome askar, and my blogspace will not be enuf to summarize it k.

okay.... now thats done....

i will now explain to you. my adventure (small heart)

did face painting with cousins!

aku~~~ jadi askarrrr ;/

azizull.

omg cute fat kid (BIG HEART)

my dads MODIS car.

and posing posing over several places zzz. man i look so fat. FATTER THAN EVER. tmr aku diet ni. BANAR.

OK THAT IS ALL.

2011-05-23T13:03:00.004+08:00

my life has been awesome as always, though i do feel that it is redundant to say that :3

HAHAHA.

i love working in auLait.

full on.

i will give discounts to those wwho come up to me and say,

"milk"

towards june.

discounts up to 25% for any meals (regardless of our offer selections and breakfasts)

our coffee is awesome shit. and so is my new boss. hehehe.

today i will be having like..... a BBQ with them.

im gna start bringing my camera and .... yeah. HAHHAHAH. its still under renovation -____- so. i cant really hold it as much :'( HAHAHAHAHAHA.

2011-05-19T02:19:00.000+08:00

i will just post a picture. ok. bye.

oh and. i love working at Aulait... heheheheheheheeh. ok bai.

hondura

2011-05-14T14:54:00.005+08:00

spent the day sama the gundiks.

i excercised because i wanna look like thisss....

GAL GADOT. sexy assssssss bitchhhh. :'(

you gotta watch fst five to actually see this part.

i watched it once.................. and my bf watched it 2x. and mei. sadly, watched it three times. :p

HAHAHAHA.

playing in the rain

2011-05-12T13:36:00.000+08:00

i think i like KaPaow the most :}

hai spent most of my two days with hiz. ;p

smelly biyathc.

and hello, peyton had her bath ;p

hehee, sorry baby u look ugli ;p

running away from me. :(

FRESH!

nightnight ;p

I GOT A NEW CAMERA!

hahaha, its not pink,and its exactly this one, i think its the cheapest canon camera in the market! simple.... but. heh, im gna bling it soon! hehehehe.

and i keep dreamimng abot crocs. so freaky. like. i would dream that im in a boat... and my boat.... so tiny... like this;

and they would swarm me. :( scary ler.

and my current lesbian flavor.

ANGELABABY.

3/4 chinese, 1/4 German.

nor bad for a german descent ;p

gunno jogz.

limkokping

2011-04-30T23:46:00.005+08:00

i wanna talk about natural beauty.

THIS IS NATURAL BEAUTY. u like eeet? u laike?

STOP TELLING ME BULLSHIT ABOUT NATURAL BEAUTY. models wear makeup also. i never see guys liur over girls without makeup. plis. ur argument is invalid.

hahaha, nda pulang aku kena ucap fake.

but honestly, i am one fake girl........... with fake long lashes. LOL.

if i plan to be natural, i will not shower somore k?

btw, took off my extensions. cz i hate it :(

2011-04-24T08:33:00.003+08:00

a tribute to red riding hood!

for meeting my expectations.

....because im poisoned.

2011-04-24T07:49:00.004+08:00

slutty blue nails baby.

i wokeup super early, cz its sunday and its almost the best day to have sales? hahaha.

have you guys tried hommed baga? its heaven. and i WILL have it when i cuti. iv got so much running in myy head.... like my interviews, ubd, birthdays, sales. :'( fml.

i watched red riding hood!

and predictably I LOVED IT. hehehe.

still havent got a clearer view of this in Youtube. hahaa, really made my skin crawl :( hahaha.

shes getting hotter from the last time we saw her in MeanGirls huhh? :p hahaha.

and i still neeed a camera ok? :'( hahahah.

shit so busyyy.

if u cud bring a laptop to work without it getting bitched fucked and shiz, i would. cz the battery will drive me angry and i dont wanna go thru that ;'( hahahahaha.

ff

2011-04-16T07:53:00.006+08:00

after long excruciating working hours in Venere. :(... i think a lot. and its so bed. cz i feel my otak goreng lah somewhere. :'( bzzt.

okay.

if i were to deliberate.

there are two types of people.

1. sticking to one, because thats the greatest challenge.

2. ppl who think the challenge is to ff as much as they can.

okay. i am definately number one okay:p doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure that out :'p HAHAHAHA. so im gna talk abt number two because i dont like them. LOL.

NUMBER TWO PEOPLE. are those who mostly grew in situations where their family upbringing had flaws. being scared of the fights or separation being depicted by their parents. so they always afraid of commitment... leaving them to fuck arnd with ppls heart.

i wouldnt blame them. these are the types i may have pity for, and arent so cocky abt fucking/slutting/assholing arnd. HOWEvER, ada jua yang perfect upbringing, but still fudged in the brain? i dont know why lah ahhh :p like how they bangga bangga talk abt their scandals................... and whatnot.

NOT TO BE BANGGA :

"semalam aku arah my scandal, sekali my boyfriend/girlfriend macam marah... ai pacahhh."

"got preggers a few time"

"(mulut kurang ajar)"

my chinese boss asked me, is it your culture to have scandals?

becuase most of his workers did the same thing. menggatal.

and I. and pulled into that vortex of sluttiness by my race.

i know lah there issss A HEFTY amout of couples who just sticks to one. because i am definately ONE of them.

dont brag abt ppl uv dated.

i think its an embarrasment that relationship dont work out.

kalau one failed relationship. okay lah. the density of of shame isnt so kuat. think of it as a collective system of SHAME COLECTING. ppl make mistakes.

BUT HAVING 10 failed relationships, THATS YOUR FAULT. it isnt cz the WORLD doesnt understand ur needs. its cz u already sibeh fucked up. i dont know what ure expecting lagi. dont tell me theres another variety of people yang boleh understand you ok. why u in the relationship at the first place.

im not gonna lie to you. NO RELATIONSHIP IS PERFECT. there will be arguments and dissatisfaction. and we can only HOPE for one. but i can tell you this, staying together can IMPROVE the relationship and make it PERFECT, or even more, because we tend to understand our partners and.... if u just go sama orang lain, u just have to start sama orang, and i tell you. its the same shit.

and donnnnt tell me you see your friends this that.... HONEYMOON PERIOD. they usualy end up two ways, stronger(ppl number one) and weaker(ppl number two). REMEBER, good things come to an end. always. plus if its too perfect, ur gna kill urself pasal boredom.

quality over quantity, I AM A QUALITY PERSON. expensive is quality and i would like to refer hardship as it. quantity... please i can achieve. it makes you a winner when you have one expensive things that nobody else has, but a billion replica and defected boys/girls? pleaaaase. hahahaha. PASS. what is in qulaity?? it has, LOVE, EXPERIENCE.ittakes a berkin bag AGES to get ready and interms of stiches and love in it invested on, it is never equivalent to another.

BUT a cheap bags.... poof, kedai. 5 secs. do you see the idea that easy isnt victory?

i mean, when you jalan jalan...... nobody turns for you cheap bag. but a birkin (ppl number one)...... yeay baby they be hatin.

and this is my BIrkin.

(ahhaha, he played with my fone. apa rasanya ;p)

and i hope im his Birkin.

e.t.

2011-04-14T23:25:00.004+08:00

hi every body. iv been working in venere kiulap for the past few days... though its very quiet surroundings, i am actually busting my brains more than SKH.

super fml.

however, there is always room for beauty appreciation.

day one.

day two

day three.

DAY 4

DAY 5

DAY 6. ok. poof jadi food. lol.

DAy 7.

DAY 8

DAY 9

DAY 10.

ok bye.

You know my pedigree

2011-04-10T02:40:00.002+08:00

got work tmr also cannot sleep. Sekali esok aku sleep arah couch.

I miss rie. :(

wwwwwwww

2011-04-05T17:55:00.006+08:00

and i watched SUCKER PUNCH!

okay, awalnya its awesome hit...

toomuch panties... :p like it. but it kinda gets annoying once they reuse the same thing. and vanessa hudgens... NO COMMENT. i think she should stay in Disney. forever.

and i like how emily browning's makeup put on here. hahaa. srsly made me sound ultra nazi... but yeah, platinum blonde.... very nice... if only i can pull it off... LOL.

please pause my playlist if u wanna watch this.

lol. id give sucker punch a good opening review. but...i cudnt appriciate it towards the end. :)

TOTALLY WAITING FOR RED RIDING HOOD! much loveeeeeeeeeee.

light

2011-04-05T16:39:00.010+08:00

its not that im lazy. but i am. LOL. iv beeen snifing on victory a.k.a MY PROM QUEEN TIARA.

ahaha. i keep thinking its pasal i have to be like an ORIGINAL senior to be prom queen or sth. i mean. lol, it does sound sad that i have to be in three proms to win some thing! :( HAHAHAHA. first prom was, masa aku repeat, and i wasnt even in school. LOL. and my 2nd prom... i was a junior. and. this. *sniff victory. :) APAKAN. loser. hahaha.-_____-

okay prom evolution from 2008 to 2010s!

2008.

Asma Hotel.

Themeless.

dress by my regulars.

prom 2009

Empire.

Las Vegas.

dress also by my regulars.

prom 2010

Polo Club.

Greek.

Dress by Kokusui.

and my date...... throughout 2008-2010

Hairie Amdan.

Kairie Lamkan

Fairie Tamtan

ahakz. thanks for coming to all my proms eventhough you hate it :p hahaha. ur so sweet for even talking about what you wanna wear... and how u wanna match me and sweet talking me for dates and shiz :p i love you Jairie Kamsan.

hehee

r; wow. so im dating a prom queen.

d; i guess u can say that.

r; iv never kissed a prom queen before.

d; .......

r; :)

HAHAHAHAH.

ogay.

this year. is very special......... :)

this year i am committee for the prom.

i introduce you my host....

maybe ada flaws in our approach but hey. thank you her, for making The night of the Agamemnon happen...... at first she single handedly handled all the aspects. till she actually gave the night a life... thank you Aqilah Ghani. :)

and here are some sneak peaks of the night....

me, nureen, qilly

believe it or not, i blew everything....... :( hahaha. nada wah i had help. but my head hurts :'(

part of the committee. counting the money.

dancingggg~~~~~

sufyan and Nabzy.

and here are the Gods of the night.

Prom King (Zeus) - Hadi

Prom Queen (Hera) - Me

Best Dressed Male (Narcisscus) - Hadi

Best Dressed Female (Aphrodite) - Me but i declined ssshh

Cutest Couple (Eros and Phsyce) - Hadi and Deena

hahahahahaha. was awesomealicious.

okay esteban..... play the musicccc.

and to think of it, its sad. tha i am no longer to annoy PTEM/PTEB :'(

these faces will just become memories.... all those pain. those hardships, the laughs the joy... its has ended... and to all the PTEMs we made it :)

and i as prom queen of 2010, suck on this.... x

LOL

me :p

2011-04-03T09:22:00.004+08:00

ultra shiok ehh :'(

made my night fureal.

and i was. finally. LOL. (cries a little bit inside)

more dots

give your finger muscles.

orgasm already? HAHAHA

oK.

PROMQUEEN!

2011-04-02T04:56:00.002+08:00

super torn what to do with my hair whether to do it up... or down! :'( HAHAHA.

CANNOT SLEEEEEEEP :'(

oheiohei ohei. iv testdrived my out fit. and for the first time i can say that i have bulletproof my prom outfit instead of crashing saja.. lol. okay. wish me luck! today is the day!

support stupidity, for its research and to overcome it.

2011-04-01T16:27:00.012+08:00

i personally do not believe in NOT having time.

if somebody says to you "oh im kinda busy"... definately means that he/she doent wanna hang out with you.

and i, am personally offended when ppl say that.

NOBODY. is BUSY. ever.

no, i dont have maybes. really, if i was crying at 3am in the morning, SOMEBODY WHO CARES would pick up my call. YES. and who ever doesnt... doesnt care. i am not being selfish.

I SAY SO BECAUSE I WOULD DO THE EXACT SAME SHIT.

PICKING UP 3AM CALLS WHEN MY BRAIN CANNOT FUNCTION.

because i believe that maybe he/she could be in an utmost stressful state that he/she could commit suicide. and that 3am could would be your last. and it is all because of me.... HOW TO SAVE A LIVE. lesson number #234

my world doesnt revolves around me, i can say that. my world has a few people and cats i care about, and they are people that i will personally take care of above anything else............

BUSY. means - I DONT HAVE TIME FOR YOU.

fuck you.

so angryyyy.

ok lah, i will not take your time lah.......

if u gotta save the world and shit, or work or do life threatenig surgeries, or meetings, or u have exams, i would understand. i am after all an understandingperson, behind my many bitch rants. i am a compassionate caring and most loving person. im not a clingy person. srsly. but i do spend intimate moments to the complete core.

i know at times ppl cant pick up their fone because like i said................ whatever. i get that. SO PLEASE. maybe, a little bit of understanding could be carried on here? im not asking for blood or anything. just TIME. maybe a little bit of manners. a sorry. and an update. i mean what are fones for? *rolleyes.

BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE THINK. ITS OKAY TO BE FUCKING RUDE WHEN THEYR TIRED? LIKE....

"IM SO SORRY FOR BEING

SUCH AN ASSHOLE IV BEEN WORKING/STUDYING/SAVING THE DOLPHINS/CATCHING UNICORNS/(INSERT WHATEVER HORRENDOUS REASON TO MAKE THEIR ASSHOLENESS LESS ASSHOLE-ISH) THE WHOLE DAY".

wth?

like ; i have the right to be fucking stupid cuz i havent been stupid for one day. wait. maybe 6 hours. or... 3... i dno. HA HA HA.

WHY CHOOSE TO BE MEAN AND STUPID WHEN THERE ARE A LOT OF OTHEr CHARACTERS TO BE? like sweet? or goofy... or emo... whatever.... just dont be rude.

HAS ANYONE EVER SEEN ME FLIP WHEN I WORK? only when u pick up fights with me, and im not just being vague. like. really.... just dont lose your manners. or release the mighty kraken stupidity lah.

i have made time for people.

FRANKLY SPEAKING.

i have spent hours on people i CARE... on days that i know i can only get once a week. and iv worked in a place that is pure mental torture. 12 hours of non stop work. and my cuti...... IS FILLED with house chores that i cant do while im at work. and YESSSSSSSSS. for so many times, i have wished that i could spend my CUTI on sleeping. BUT NO. I DONT. i believe sleep is for the dead. i sleep when i have to. and i do not do it overload. WHY TAKE TIME FROM SLEEP BECAUSE??? WHEN WE DIE... WE. ARE. GONNA. SLEEP. FOREVER. WHY DIE NOW?

SO. i spend it, like i said, with the people and the animals i love.

AND. my question now is...... WHY THE FUCK DO PPL... who has more than enough resting time... DONT SEE THIS THING?

i tell you. stupidity.

ok thanks.

p.s. to my ex 200 twitter followers. i thank thee for baring with my bitchfit tweets. because an eyeopener last night, that i can be extra machinegun when im angry. thank you for supporting RTs and helpful replies. and making me feel like my exsistance isnt so stupid, tho i kno u dont read me... nobody does. ahakz. tho, i remember you, because, i am an attention whore. apakan. LOL. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. ew. and sorry for the many beautiful men who have followed me that i did not follow back because i have a beautiful-er boyfriend(heartheartheart) who i wish to keep for the rest of my life..... and after.

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2012

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bella swan.

lajuliah

MANGO

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THANKS ANYWAY.

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forever21

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lovely dayyyyyy.

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engagement.

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youre a hollywood treasure

hope for love that we dont believe in

too pretty for maths.

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dressed in poetry

give me give me all of you you

hope

to FRIDAY FRIDAY.

jambuuu

hondura

playing in the rain

limkokping

....because im poisoned.

ff

e.t.

You know my pedigree

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